No longer the same

I dont tell anyone
I wont tell anyone

I miss me .

Lost to myself after all the struggling .. Ouch .

Sawahdeekup

Ok i had fun last night . Different kind of fun :)

Chanlokun ~

Hey

So much happened just within months .

Am i still me ?

Too much to say , where should i start ?

Love in vain

I am such a jerk .

Why the fuck am I doing all these to hurt people whom I love , and love me ..

Daddy ,

I'm sorry . I love you . Really . When your heart aches , I feel more than anybody else .. Yingying is not a good girl anymore .. Thank you so much for loving me , protecting me . You could't have loved me better .
How can I ever be back to the same me again after all I did . I dont deserve you at all .

Darling

SHIT

I've got shitloads of photos to upload . Most in fb .
So much to say . New job starting this Friday !
Having lots of fun these few days , beloved GRACE and KAILIN'S advance celebration .

Really too many updates , i dont know what to do . Sentosa trip too .
AHHHHHHHH

Forgotten to remember

Will update about my genting trip 25 -27 March soon :) Love the weather over there ..
And , i've tendered my resignation .

I miss -

Dearie Ningjie's birthday celebration tonight at Illuzion .

Lost touch with blogging already ..

Belated post for my love .

His birthday , 2 March 2010:

We're supposed to check in to Siloso Beach Resorts on his actual day which is 2March . But on the very fateful 1March , he had some small spots on his hand which is actually blisters . He tried to burst it but the water came back anyway . So .. he went to the doctor and was diagnosed with Chicken Pox on that night .

Disappointed , plans spoiled , he went to do his things as usual while i stayed home .. But i thought i need to make him happy no matter what its HIS BIRTHDAY !! so i rushed down to Holland V at 10pm+ to Swensens to get a cake (was suppose to DIY one for him the next day before gg to hotel) and called his sister and mum to plan a little surprise as he doesnt know am going over . So i cab from Cck to Holland to Tampines . Lucky thing is i reach before and his not back yet ! So i went back with his sis and mum ..

Waiting for him to be back .

I got so nervous cause i told him i'll be out singing with my girls at Clementi Kbox(they really are) AND i totally forgot to call/sms him when the clock hit 12mn !!!

In between exchanging calls with him i kept saying either i'm smoking outside or in the ladies cause of my super quiet background which is highly impossible in such a place . Still , i never laughed or piu chui ..

So the drama goes on ,

once we heard the sound of keys unlocking the door i literally jumped and hide myself in his dad's room cause i dont know what reaction i should give when he sees me . So i hid myself . (Hid my sandals, bag too)

AND THIS CLEVER BLOODY XIAOQIANG CALLED ME FROM HIS ROOM !!!

Purposely want to make me ugly lor .. Then you can guess already .. My ringtone rang so loud and i freaking annoyed lah . Nothing i can do so i ran into his arms and screamed

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

His mummy and meimei :) Credits goes to them too !

Him playing a fool when making a wish -.-

Okie finally wished and cut cake ! :)

Pardon my hair i was sweating since lor . Haha !

The delicious 3 layered ice cream cake .

Polaroids from his Sis ! Nice .

He told me he already guessed that i was at his place cause i didnt call him at 12mn(so buaybar hor?) and my background very suspicious and i kept asking him what time he going home since he sick .
But he admited that when he didnt see my sandals he thought he thought too much . Hahah !

Even though it wasnt really a blast but am really happy to see him happy .
After that night , everything became disastrous for him .
Everytime he took his medication , his fever will go up making him all !#$%&*@ . How to put it ? Strengthless , pain , cant eat alot of stuffs , bla bla bla lah .. And its fucking itchy yet you cant scratch it lor .
And the mental part , see your whole face and body covered in spots , its really frightening to feel .
Thats why they say , the older you get it the worse it is .

Its really depressing to see him suffering , but still had my smile on everytime in front of him .
Hmm thats about it . Took care of him , and i returned to work on and off after 3 days .
Now its 2 weeks plus already and he's almost good , just return to work today :)
Even go buy new car when  he's having chicken pox lor wtf .

Hope he'll enjoy his postponed birthday present from me on 2 April !
And after typing so much .. You know ..

I love you Daddy !!!

Theres no need to elaborate cause both you and I know it :)
Just a line taken from Anqiqi :

Rain or shine , I'll stay by your side ..

So much love .

Happy 25th Birthday to my beloved

I've some photos in my camera .. The last minute surprise for him . Will upload soon ..

Supposed to be at Siloso Beach Resort but my poor boy suddenly got attacked by chicken pox . Spent 2 days taking care of him , will go over tmr morning too . Unpaid leave was my last resort but i couldnt bear him all alone in the day without anyone looking after him .
Seeing him suffer right in front of me yet i cant do anything makes me feels like killing myself .. The heartache . The pain . The helpless-ness . I shouldn't breakdown at this time but i just cant control my tears when i turn away .
Though he'll get well but I really dont wish to see him go through all these .

Still , he must be feeling alot more frustrated than i am . The soreness , the feeling of no energy to move , the drowsiness , the pain of the wounds , the unbearable itchiness everywhere .

God . Please end this asap .

*On a sidenote , we've postponed the hotel date to 2nd April , adding a $50 charge to a weekend . Hopefully he can enjoy himself ..

Whats worse than getting a contagious at-least-1-week sickness just right before your birthday ? Sighs .

Because

Am gonna be so busyyy and .. broke .

Tomorrow onwards
25/2 Thursday - Zhiyi's chalet @Chevrons with my girls
27/2 Saturday - Phoebe's Birthday Bbq @Panjang
28/2 Sunday - Baby Chevelle's 1st month celebration @Tw

March
02/3 - 03/3 Tues>Wed
Xiaoqiang's birthday resort @ Sentosa Siloso beach (so excited we're gonna have our private jacuzzi at the rooftop!) RELAX & ENJOY !
25/3 - 27/3 Thu>Sat
Genting with godma & family . First time to Genting Highlands !

Spoilers - my company deduct $100 allowance from me !!!!
Cause i always never wear uniform + slippers . Few months le lor . Now den take action .. Dunno should say heng or angry . Grrrrrrr .
Fuck Norbreeze . Fuck my damn supervisor especially she's resigning already GOOD !!!

However , i cant be bothered and still very much looking forward to all the events :)

Till then .

Live laugh love

Feels like in a race .. But I've already won 1st place :)

Gong xi fa cai / Valentines / 2 years anniversary

Wishing everyone a Happy new year ,

with a sweet valentine to go this year ! 

Few photos only .. Was having good food and gambling with my dearest family all the way :) Rushing here and there ..

 Lao Yu Sheng with lots of abalone ~~

I received flowers from him on the eve , as we're not meeting on Chu Yi as he's going Msia . Thoughtful of him to get it delivered to my place (he nt sure bout' the address) with my girlfriends and mum's help <3

 Xiaobai and his babies , LOL

Managed to meet up for our 2 yrs anni :) We caught Valentine's Day at vivo on Chu Er , sweet movie ! And had Mr bean for dinner/supper . Was here last year's v'day too ~

The most awesome bf on earth .

Him getting his prezzie from me !

Opening ..

 Exploring ..

 And using it straightaway ! Hehe

 My cyclops boyfriend . LOLOLOL

Its actually an eye massager from Osim which helps to circulate blood around the eyes with air pressure . With quite alot of functions too , heating , vibrating .. And its really makes you sleepy and comfy . I tried :p

And he got me a dkny watch .. Very silly of him knowing that i could get it at 50% off , yet he still bought it .. Very feminine though . Lol . Like it ! :)

Was really glad that we managed to meet up on our 2 yrs anni , cause we've missed Valentines already .. Even though it doesnt really matters but i believe everyone hopes to have their love ones around each other on special occasions right ? :)

Anyway .. stayed over at his place and went Tampines Mall the next day for Fish &co ! Yumss . And gambled with his friends for awhile before he sent me back .. Thats about it <3

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Am gonna be busy this 2 months , Phoebe's bbq on 27th , Zy's birthday chalet on 25th (help my dear kailin) , my beloved Xq's birthday on 2nd March , me going Genting end of March .. Need lots of cash and time !!

Just bought some products from h20+ today , spent 150 !! hopefully its good !! haiz . backside itchy always wanna buy buy buy ..

Sidetrack .. He's not going Bkk end of this month already ! yeah ~

Ok dunno when i'll update again , see you when i see you !

Cny blues

Days has been nice and simple .. with a little ups and downs . Am still learning how to trust you , how to trust people around me ..

This year my house seems to liven up ,  I bought new sofa and tv console , microwave and toaster oven from him .. He seems to be more thoughtful then me , and care more for my family then I do =.= Even though he hasnt met my mum YET for these 2 years . Zzzz

Will he come visit my mum bai nian this year ? Lol

Spent quite alot these 2 months , sighs . 

Some low quality pics from my berry .. If only it wasnt easily blurred ! 

He's going Msia on Valentines , also Chu 1 .. Comin back on Chu 2 , which is also our 2 year anniversary .. Hope we'll have time just for a dinner or something at night ~

Tmr Illuzion ~

Xiaoqiang

me: you trust me 100% ?

last time dun trust
but now, if i have doubt i ask u, whatever u ans me, i wil believe
i ask u 1+1 = wat
if you say is 3, i will believe is 3

me: why ?

coz i love u

I cried .

My beloveds

Saturday , caught The Spy next door at Vivo with Xq ~ Had dinner at Japanese Gourmet Town .
Nice movie , nice food , nice company :)

 Yummy soba !!

Today , had steamboat with my girls at Bt Timah ! Nice company and nice food too !
And .. CONGRATS TO KAILIN !! So envy .. Got her liscense . When's my turn ?

I'm expensive and addictive like cocaine . Not .
Thats my Anqiqi , i bet you all know already . Haha !

Okay gonna watch Autumn Concerto already . And Hi my Sweetheart ! :)
I miss Taiwan ...

Gracious day

Yesterday .
I met up with Grace the bitch . Am glad i did . We did some shopping and talked till 2am at Cineleisure Old Town .
I'm happy , i miss her . I miss that feeling . We chat till our lungs out and i had sore throat . Lol .
And the best part was , she actually had the same experience of falling from the highchair too !! Stupid like me , she hooked her heels . But think hers was worse cause she fell down in the middle of Suntec City . Well clubs are dark so i maybe considered lucky already . LOL .

I bought undies(5 LOL) , Triumph bra (heh) , new black stockings from Topshop , bandage skirt with office-like material from Osmose .. And shoes ! Finally found the type i wanted cause its hard to find .. Didnt manage to get any tops though . Planning to go Bugis tgt soon .

When no one listens to what i say , i know she will .. Love .

Slept at 7am , woke at 10am . Tired like what !!! Den the sofa came ..

Xq came too :)

But i was too tired till i didnt even bother about him and sleep all the way . Until he was leaving i woke up .

So so sorry ~

Small and L shape . Thats what i need .

Craving for some ...

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vampire boys ?

I feel like getting James outta the picture . And btw the faux teeth looks ugly to me . Boulging .

Lovely weekend

We went Jp for Din Tai Fung on Saturday , i was craving for it very long ! Everyday at Wisma smell the xiaolongbao make me so tempted . And got his Goofy ! He so happy lah , keep hugging it . Now its at his house already ! Like a kid .. After dinner we walked around and headed to Le Bar to find his friend . Lots of camwhore for this post !

Now we have one more member to our family of turtles and bears ! Doggy Goofy !

Why so happy ?? lol .

At LeBar ~

Went back to his place , sleep till 3pm . Left house around 5pm . A big thanks to him for searching my ideal sofa with me .. We went to alot of places , i felt like giving up but he seems more persistant than me .. Makes me feel so loved . We went Tamp Industrial , Defu Lane , Furniture Mall , Sims Ave , and Geylang . A cheap and good and small sofa not easy to find lor . Cause mostly is big leather type .. And finally we settled for that one at Brighton , $500plus . Delivery on Thurs . Yay ! Surprise for Mummy again . Xq got Mummy a microwave for New Year , and now I got a new sofa for our house ! :):)

Orchard Central for dinner . Had Ah Yat , damn suaku of me .. First time eat whole abalone (but vvv small leh) . Hahah . This is the more budget one of Ah Yat , not really the restaurant one .

Very worth it cause 3 course meal per pax is around $30+, which includes Shark Fins soup , Abalone with main course , and Bird nest dessert ..

Walked around and he sent me back .. Thats it .

Sometimes i wonder what i've done to deserve someone like him .. I dont , at all . He's too good to be true , like a dream sometimes .. I'm always the selfish one , always taking , hardly giving .. But through out these days i've really been happy . The amount of love he gave me in 2 years is more than anything that ever happened to me . He gives that "天塌下来我都不怕，因为我知道你会在" feeling to me (except when he's sleeping like a log, can never wake up no matter what), and i dont care about what others say anymore cause i know i've him with me . Gosh my eyes are wet now =.=

Of course , we do have quarrels and tiffs at times , his stubbornness and my nonsense always , but am glad we came so far together .

Coming 2 years anniversary in Feb 15 ! (cb cny day2) :)

Anyway , i had dinner with my darlings at 145 just now , thanks Wen for the treat ! :)
Hope the hot topics get blown away soon , so sian of hearing all the sick things !
And looking forward to Wednesday shopping trip with Grace !! Havent seen her for so long .

Interview tmr morning . Goodnight love !