No longer the same

I dont tell anyone
I wont tell anyone

I miss me .

Lost to myself after all the struggling .. Ouch .

Sawahdeekup

Ok i had fun last night . Different kind of fun :)

Chanlokun ~

Hey

So much happened just within months .

Am i still me ?

Too much to say , where should i start ?

Love in vain

I am such a jerk .

Why the fuck am I doing all these to hurt people whom I love , and love me ..

Daddy ,

I'm sorry . I love you . Really . When your heart aches , I feel more than anybody else .. Yingying is not a good girl anymore .. Thank you so much for loving me , protecting me . You could't have loved me better .
How can I ever be back to the same me again after all I did . I dont deserve you at all .

Darling

SHIT

I've got shitloads of photos to upload . Most in fb .
So much to say . New job starting this Friday !
Having lots of fun these few days , beloved GRACE and KAILIN'S advance celebration .

Really too many updates , i dont know what to do . Sentosa trip too .
AHHHHHHHH

Forgotten to remember

Will update about my genting trip 25 -27 March soon :) Love the weather over there ..
And , i've tendered my resignation .

I miss -

Dearie Ningjie's birthday celebration tonight at Illuzion .

Lost touch with blogging already ..

Belated post for my love .

His birthday , 2 March 2010:

We're supposed to check in to Siloso Beach Resorts on his actual day which is 2March . But on the very fateful 1March , he had some small spots on his hand which is actually blisters . He tried to burst it but the water came back anyway . So .. he went to the doctor and was diagnosed with Chicken Pox on that night .

Disappointed , plans spoiled , he went to do his things as usual while i stayed home .. But i thought i need to make him happy no matter what its HIS BIRTHDAY !! so i rushed down to Holland V at 10pm+ to Swensens to get a cake (was suppose to DIY one for him the next day before gg to hotel) and called his sister and mum to plan a little surprise as he doesnt know am going over . So i cab from Cck to Holland to Tampines . Lucky thing is i reach before and his not back yet ! So i went back with his sis and mum ..

Waiting for him to be back .

I got so nervous cause i told him i'll be out singing with my girls at Clementi Kbox(they really are) AND i totally forgot to call/sms him when the clock hit 12mn !!!

In between exchanging calls with him i kept saying either i'm smoking outside or in the ladies cause of my super quiet background which is highly impossible in such a place . Still , i never laughed or piu chui ..

So the drama goes on ,

once we heard the sound of keys unlocking the door i literally jumped and hide myself in his dad's room cause i dont know what reaction i should give when he sees me . So i hid myself . (Hid my sandals, bag too)

AND THIS CLEVER BLOODY XIAOQIANG CALLED ME FROM HIS ROOM !!!

Purposely want to make me ugly lor .. Then you can guess already .. My ringtone rang so loud and i freaking annoyed lah . Nothing i can do so i ran into his arms and screamed

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

His mummy and meimei :) Credits goes to them too !

Him playing a fool when making a wish -.-

Okie finally wished and cut cake ! :)

Pardon my hair i was sweating since lor . Haha !

The delicious 3 layered ice cream cake .

Polaroids from his Sis ! Nice .

He told me he already guessed that i was at his place cause i didnt call him at 12mn(so buaybar hor?) and my background very suspicious and i kept asking him what time he going home since he sick .
But he admited that when he didnt see my sandals he thought he thought too much . Hahah !

Even though it wasnt really a blast but am really happy to see him happy .
After that night , everything became disastrous for him .
Everytime he took his medication , his fever will go up making him all !#$%&*@ . How to put it ? Strengthless , pain , cant eat alot of stuffs , bla bla bla lah .. And its fucking itchy yet you cant scratch it lor .
And the mental part , see your whole face and body covered in spots , its really frightening to feel .
Thats why they say , the older you get it the worse it is .

Its really depressing to see him suffering , but still had my smile on everytime in front of him .
Hmm thats about it . Took care of him , and i returned to work on and off after 3 days .
Now its 2 weeks plus already and he's almost good , just return to work today :)
Even go buy new car when  he's having chicken pox lor wtf .

Hope he'll enjoy his postponed birthday present from me on 2 April !
And after typing so much .. You know ..

I love you Daddy !!!

Theres no need to elaborate cause both you and I know it :)
Just a line taken from Anqiqi :

Rain or shine , I'll stay by your side ..

So much love .