(^_^)

Long long time ago ..

We watch New Moon (9 Dec) and i passed him his Christmas present . And that day (13 Dec) after i went clubbing with Grace the previous night , stayed at his place and we went 313 :)

We dined at this Thai restaurant .. Fuckin spicy tom yam ..

Still not enough , i remember craving alot for brownie so we headed to Cine Gloria Jeans .

We played the machine and got this Mos Hamburger ! :)

I was very happy that day <3

That night (12 Dec) Rebel with my sweetie Grace (she's at India suffering now!)

And finally .. Christmas Eve with my darling girls !!

All was well . Until .. Some bleeding and breaking happened .

Nevertheless i still enjoyed . The best part was the present exchange session .. Haha . Thanks Nouvelle for the perfume :) And congrats to Kailin for receiving mine . Didnt join the spraying fun as i was wearing white , for fear of dirtying . But who knows at end of the night i went home with dunno what martell or coke or blood stains on it . Lucky mum managed to cleaned it ..

I just gave mum 600 bucks , (so filial right ? LOL)
please remind me not to spend on unnecessary stuffs for this coming month .
I need all the money .

There're still some photos which i'm lazy to upload .. Someday okay ?
Anyway , have caught Alvin & the Chipmunks 2(on 25th Christmas with Xq) and Avatar 3D(27th with him too) . Both were good except that i regret watching 3D for Avatar , if i knew it would be abit blur and giddy i would save the extra 3 bucks . Still , the graphics were much better den the normal ones during scenes of the .. magical place ? Lol .
But am not satisfied , i want to watch Sherlocks Holmes badly !! Like NOW !!!!!!

knnbccb

Crap
CRAP
C R A P !

Pay is not in yet . No mood to celebrate anything .
How to enjoy later ?

xmas eve

He 's not going Malacca ! He's here for christmas :)
Even though we're not celebrating together , the thought of him staying still feels good .

Gonna party hard tmr with my lovely girls !!

Com[promise]

I've got love . So much . So many .
I didnt know it at all . I didnt know how you felt because you never said .
I didnt know you worry so much .

You make me feel alive , because only you feel for me .
You can see me , like how transparent i am to others .
Thank you for making me realise my importance , to you , again .

Last christmas i gave you my heart , this christmas you ... keep it safely .
Although my emptyness is inside myself ,
you have actually filled a small part unknowingly when you loved me .

And so , the lion fell in love with the lamb

I'm losing interest in blogging .

N86 is only 5 months old yet now i'm tempted to change :(
Maybe i should delibrately lose my phone so i have the excuse to get a new one .

Lazy to transfer photos to pc , so just upload the out dated ones ..
I've completed the series(i'm so bored now without them, maybe i should re-read?) , only waiting for the movie to be up .. So much love for Twilight .

I'm broken again .
No cash , no friends
no love .
Nothing .
Too used to having nothing and being nothing .
I'll be fine , independance is what it takes only afterall .
Have always been :)

I think i've found out the problem (all the paranoid-ness/emptyness), tell ya someday .
Anyway , dont bother to console me , i'll feel like laughing . Really . Not to say ask .
Thanks .

The reason for all

With a couple of girlfriends last two nights over Holland V ..

Have so much to blog but cant find any to start with .

Hmmm

II

Lazyness overpowers everything - except shopping .

Woke up nearly 3pm , didnt want to step out of the house unnessecarily but cant wait to get my hands on the jeans , so ..
Went town alone around evening , did some shopping on my own and he came to join me around 8pm . The jeans from Zara TRF wasnt as nice as it is on the website , so disappointed .
I wanted to get some rugged/ bleached/ super acid-washed ones but its either the material sucks or the cutting not my type .
Mango having sales , super packed . The jeans damn cheap lor , but i dont wan to queue to try . Somemore payment also must queue :( So left emptyhanded . Nothing caught my eyes ..
In the end he got one pair of jeans from Topshop for me , christmas present ! <3 (= <3
He got himself a long sleeve from Springfield as well ..
Totalling up with one top and legging from Zara which i bought before he came .. Not enough lor !!
Bought some tidbits and biscuits home from Ion too .
Went Oasis for dinner , so happy .. i miss the food so much !
("v")

I want to upload photos .. but 有心无力 leh .
Tomorrow work till 11pm again .. Shucks . =(

Lazyness overpowers everything

Saturday - Rebel . Club . Grace . Love .

Sunday - Orchard Central . 313 Somerset . Shop . Eat . Shiok . Qiang . Happy :)

I want to get all the jeans from Zara TRF series ! Sibei chio .. Do they have it here ?
I want to get a wristlet/clutch too ..
I want a new bag , the current one's thread come out le :(
Okay lah .. main point is i want to go shopping ! Christmas + year end season = SALES !!
I mean really shop without considering anything , like go overseas holiday like that ..
No need to keep thinking bank left how much :(

He knows i've never been there .. so ,
he ask me to go Genting with him next month , should i ?
But what should i do when he goes to the casino leh ?

I feel like going to see see leh .

Our Song

Yesterday

• Christmas present for him - Stay Real Navy Polo tee ! I finally found it .. In Sg ! Sure he likes it .
• Cathay for New Moon . ( The book is like thousand time better , though i'm still very much mesmerized by Jasper and Edward !)
• Swee Choon Dimsum !!! Craving for days already .. Like finally .
• Home .

Awesome .

Today

• Work . Pizzahut with fellas .
• Someone called me while i was on my way to take bus home . ANQIQI ! (It feels so good to be remembered . Especially when half the world has forgotten your existence .)
• She's in town with Jeff ! We took turns to be bodyguards for her .. Hah . Kiddin'
• Shop with her after much persuasions (Hate being soft hearted but cant help it -.-)

I'm tired but the short meet up really made my day <3
Even if that means i got to squeeze with all the fucktards in 190 .

I wish Grace can kidnap Jackson Rathbone for me this Saturday .
And hope Taylor Lautner spots the true beauty too .
So the 4 of us can live happily ever after ... kekekex (o"_"o) *just fantasizing

I miss . Qiang .. anqiqi .. grace .. laine .. ning .. kailin .. etcetera etcetera .

Breaking Dawn

I'm halfway through ! Some spoilers for you :
Bella gave birth to a half human half vampire baby .

Ridiculous . But still love it anyway .
Imagine that she's with Jake - she would have puppies !! Hahahahahah .
Should be able to complete by tmr or the day after .

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Dear Santa ,

I've been a real good girl this year . I'm sure i did and you could see it too . Surely you must be planning for some rewards in that goodie socks for me yea , just a hint :p -
I want that Prada wristlet , badly . I like that MiuMiu one too , but it seems far out of budget and doesnt make sense to me as the colours available are only pink and blue , which is very unlikely i would consider . So there's the alternative , the Prada one's more conventional and its cheaper too . In black please .


You'd really make my christmas perfect if ..
Love you Beardy !

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I'm thinking of buying ever since i saw it .
Godamnit .
As if i ever believed in that Santa Clausssssssssssssssssss shit .

Eclipse

Holy crap . I've finished Eclipse as well . Around 3 days again i guess ??
I am a genius .

And the books gets thicker all the time , Breaking Dawn is the thickest ..
I hope i wont get pissed off carrying it .
Its very sad to know its coming to an end . I dont like this .

Team Edward or Team Jacob ??

Team Steven !! Whahahaha .
I think Xq is more like a bear compared to vampies and wolves .
He's furry , big , brown . LOL

Inhuman

Just came back from his place .. Xq fell sick 2 days back .. Till now .
I wanted to deliver some love and warmth to him .. Hoping it would help , but seems like no avail . Haha .
I trained to Tampines after work last night . He was sleeping most of the time though . I just woke him up to feed him medicine at times .
I really dunno how to take care of people . I'm sorry .
You even sent me back despite you're so restless .. So stubborn .
I feel so useless .

Get well soon boy .

New Moon

Oh i'm done with New Moon :)
Almost 3 days .

Lent Anqiqi Twilight today .
Guess Elaine next .
Kind of heartache . Hahahahaha . My baobeis leh ...

Cant wait to start on Eclipse .
I wish i'd read slower , so the story doesnt ends .

Working till 11pm tomorrow and Fri . Wtf .

Warmth

For the 1st time i drank on a Monday . Elaine and Wen persuaded me very hard before i decide to go with them . And supposing to meet qiang there . But didnt .

Melody . Atlantis . Surprised to know that its actually crowded on a Mon .
Home .

Work .
Went back to Tangs today . I thought i'd get real happy and excited but no . Glad that i had my favourite chicken rice . Everyone left , its seems so unfamiliar to be there . But with Mok around , things always get better .
Something bad - Tang's gonna close at 11pm or 12mn(every weekend) from now on . Its always like this in December cause of Xmas . But 12MIDNIGHT . For jesus sake ! =.=

Qiang came to fetch me , after 4/5 days of not seeing him , he immediately scream ORANG UTAN BIN AH BU NEH NEH when i got in the car . Zzzzzzz
Went Balestier for Bah Kut Teh and home .

He held my hand with the steering wheel to drive . Its always on the brakes but today , its seems like we drove together . Lol . I'm like a lunatic screaming at first(i always get anxious when it comes to the vehicle moving cause i know its very dangerous) , but slowly succumbed .
Nothing can explain the feeling . I remember staring blankly at him smiling with all of my heart .
Maybe this is the lunatic part -.-

Its just like i wished we'd never reach home so it'd go on forever .

My poor boy is sick now :(

Personal

Hangover .

I got a little drunk last night , i knew because when i'm high i tend to talk alot .
First , i told Anqi how much i love her and some stupid things of the past . Haha .
Second , i nagged at Jos at our table , i think i was loud , sorry . But i meant what i said anyway .
I blabbered nonsense from like 2+ 3am onwards . I didnt even know Anqi left .
I remember drinking and playing with Elaine . I hope she doesnt feels nervous again . Hah .
And by the time we decided to leave for Nana , i wanted to sleep .

I was exceptionally tired , i think because i worked the whole day , spending 10 hours on my Twilight . And i completed it within 2 days , so proud of myself . Haha . Going for New Moon now :) I so love the story . I was like inside , just beside Edward and Bella watching them . This is the 2nd book that made me wanted to tear after Chinese Cinderella .
My heart went thumping real hard and i feel myself smiling to myself when i was reading . I think i look like an idiot . I just want to stay inside the story , ignoring all the customers . In fact i felt pissed off and disturbed when some passerbys asked for directions . Lol . My vampire sweetheart !
Just something creepy - i actually had the same birthday with Bella(the lead female) , and she's 18 in the story too . I think thats why i could relate so much . Hah .

Okay . So we left Illuzion and cabbed to Nana .
It was good - before and after the 'live band' . Wen had her share of fun - i felt happy for her . Bao stayed loyal to Liok even though she just played with us all the way . I'm glad she's in good hands . And then there was this cap craze .
We danced a little , i almost hated my immobility because of my heels . But i like it alot , if not i wouldnt even bother to wear it . Anti-heels .
Live band time i just sat and smoke throughout . I munched alot of ice-cubes to keep myself awake .
Soon , some left . Alicia and Ning asked me to stay . I did .
But we left very soon too , initially supposed to head for supper with them but my body is turning down on me . So i took a cab back from Geylang .
I wanted to stay with them at first for fear of their safety , then i thought - the days they drink is double of mine , and they're still sober . So i assured myself and them , then bid goodbyes .

Kailin called earlier as she forgot her wallet is with me . I forgot too . She wanted to get back from me today afternoon . But after much consideration i decided to cab over to Woodlands to return her despite i'm drained , as to prevent being disturb from my sleep today . I felt relieved for her too . I'm so kind-hearted . Lol .

I slept in the cab all the way till Woodlands , and i tried to keep myself awake from there .
I chatted alot with the cab uncle , though i cant remember anything we've said .
It took me an hour to reach home . It was about 7am .
And even without the midnight charge , the fare was $26 !! FUck .
I think i need to claim from Kailin . Hahaha .
I spent too much then i expected . Sighhhh . its only the 28th =.=

I nearly fell when i was bathing , while washing my face . Cause naturally i had to close my eyes when i was cleansing right ? I think i almost slept . Retard .

Out and hit the pillow hard .
I miss qiang alot , i dont feel safe anywhere else except with him .
I typed a long good sms to him before i drop dead .

Surprisingly , i woke up around 1pm . I tried my best to sleep back but i cant , and the worst is my body cant move at all - its seems like there's no muscles in me , after a whole night of 'exercise' .
I just lay there and think about what happened last night .
I called qiang , i wanted to hear his voice even though i cant see him .
And i guess i slept very well after that till 6pm .

I havent upload the pictures to my com yet .
Perhaps soon .

Going to watch Twilight movie now on youtube .
Many says the book is better ? I'll see ..
And i wanna watch New Moon soon too . Maybe before i complete the book .

Grandma's place tomorrow for lunch ! :)

Problematic

 Zoo trip photos :)

We managed to cover most of the animals . And see his Orang Utan !

 White Tigers

Hippopotamus

Er i dunno whats this called

 Goaty

 Elephant and Goaty (double)

 His favourite Orang utan . You should have seen how happy he(Xq) was .

My favourite Polar Bear !! Zebrasss

Leopard , Python

Lions and cubs(above) Chicks and Ostrich

Giant rabbits , super cute penguins , horse and Rhinocerus !(above)

Very big and aggressive bird , and Ah Meng(memorial)

 Lastly , Mr Orang Utan fan , Yy with Zoo map

 Happy day ! :) Went IMM aftermath for dinner .

Still have abit of photos yet to update from my phone .
Very glad pay's in early but i've spent almost 200 already :(
Went IKEA Tampines , both of us bought the coffee table :) and some house hold items .
And today i bought the whole series of the Twilight saga .
I wonder why the fuck i did that .
I love reading but books are like waste of money sometimes ..
Initially wanted to buy just one first , but in the end i bought the whole series(four) .
So nice ~

But its only the 27 today , how am i going to survive till end of next month ?! =.=

Cramping

Tired . So so bloody .

I love my boy .

Its here again

Went Mouzzy to accompany Anqiqi at 4pm today till she knocked off . Quite crowded today , lol .
She confirm enjoyed our companion . Hahahaha
Took neoprints with Anqi and Nouvelle . Like finally , after saying so long ..
Happy .

Bankrupt . GG .

Flaws

Today's zoo trip was good , the weather didnt turn its back on us . I thought it would rain but it didnt and instead quite breezy at some times .

2012 on Saturday was good too . Cried again =.= Like so easy to make me cry especially movies ..

I've left with 8 dollar now to survive till end of this week . COOOL . Bank's left with $10+ after buying cigarettes on Fri , lucky got Nets at Cheers if not i cant even blooody smoke . As for the $10+ , i doubt i'm able to use it anyway . So lets watch me die together !!!

Shucks .

And i just received Bread's letter . He's clever to say he's first to wish me for X'mas . Early bird .

There is a land they say far far away

Will be staying at his place tomorrow .
Hope Sunday doesnt rain .
Looking forward to 2012 .

So lazy .. Gonna slp soon . Work again . Boring work ...

除了你之外`

Was supposed to go Mouzzy after work today but last minute changed . Put Anqiqi on aeroplane , zhen bu hao yi si ! Enjoy your weekend with Jeff , hope to see you next week .

Went Vivo with Xq , its been so long since we went there . Still remember we used to date there everytime , eat Haagen Dazs Cookie and Cream , movie , smoke , see the sea . Hahaha .
He's getting so much busier nowadays . But i'm too understanding , whahahaha . And i've been a good girl too (i guess?!) . I wont nag anymore . Lol .
Headed to Tpy after that for awhile .  Then home now .

Gonna watch 2012 this Saturday , and he says we'll go to the zoo on Sunday .
Hope we wont be too tired/ lazy to get out of the house .
But he seems quite excited about it .
I just went 2 years back if i'm not wrong , so i'm not really anticipating much .

I'm more excited to see him excited . Haha . Thats the satisfaction :)
Cause he says he wants to see the Orang Utan very much . I wanna see the polar bear , have been the favourite all along .

By the way , while frying the ham this morning , the oil went 'piak piak' and i got scalded  :(
BUT , the finale was gooooood !! Am a good chef . LOL

`还有谁能来教我爱

Home-ing

I made ham and tuna sandwich to bring to work for breakfast on Tues , i'm gonna do the same tomorrow . It'll be luncheon meat , ham and egg .(sounds yummy!) No choice , very tight . Tight till my prepaid is low and i'm thinking if i should top up .
Though the sandwiches are tasty and great , they can't fill my stomach . But i'm glad i'm making the effort to sleep early and wake up early just to bloody prepare it -.- Not that easy you know . Tired still must wake earlier .
If i got a flask i might even bring hot milo to work . Hahahahahahaha
Actually its fun to make all these , esp food .
Its enjoying , and good to know if they're nice .
I like to do groceries sometimes suddenly . I like to buy alot of things to put in the kitchen but never once i tried to make them . Like pasta , i bought Prego so long already haven't tried yet !!

I've made extra sandwich for Xq as well as he says he wants too . Everything he also want . Haaaa
Think i'll make a good housewife lor . Whahahahhahahahahha :x :x

Have been at home for these 2 days , dont see why my cough isnt getting any better . The phelgm is making me suffocating from sleep . ZzzzZz

X'mas coming ! :)